In June of this year I celebrated my 4 year anniversary in Paris.
It has been 4 years since i graduated from University and entered the adult world of work.
I have been in a relationship for the same amount of time that i have been in Paris.
My, how much has happened and my, how much I have grown up.
And yet...I feel like i'm on the brink.
That would be on the brink of entering another phase of adulthood.
If i could put a name to this phase, I think it would be "Lou finally getting all of her s**t together".
This summer I went to two friends' weddings, both of which were a heartfelt celebration of love between two special people very much meant for each other.
I believe that JB is my Mr. Forever.
I'm not sure we will ever wander down the traditional path of being engaged, getting married and starting a family. But we will find our own way, of that I am certain.
With JB, I have learnt how to be in a relationship.
This was a very important lesson for me as I didn't grow up with any example of an adult relationship,
my sister and i are the product of a one-parent family.
Now that i've grasped the basics of how a healthy, functioning relationship works, I feel that the time has come for me to learn how to be able to count purely on me.
Does that make any sense?
During these past 4 years in Paris, there have been some lows but more highs.
I have been fired from my first bar job (the humiliation!), I have survived 4 months working in Paris bars, I finally found a stable job. I have made plenty of friends, i have lost some of those friends, i have made mistakes, I have learnt from those mistakes. I have cried very hard and i have laughed even harder.
And in between all of the above, I have drunk a heck of a lot of good wine and eaten very well (too well!)
But JB has always been there for me. And i know he will continue to be there for me.
I just need to be there for me a little bit more.
Two really big things that i'm going to kick off this new phase with are:
1) To start driving lessons and get my driving license.
2) To continue with this budgeting malarkey.
|No, save it. Save it all!|
Have a lovely weekend one and all!