We've just returned from a relaxing two week holiday. Sunshine, the sea, good food, books on the beach, working out, just the two of us. It was bliss. We landed back in Paris yesterday morning and later in the afternoon JB was out the door to catch another flight, this time for work. I do miss him so, but luckily I am being kept busy catching up with good friends and getting back into my work routine. This is the first time that I can remember feeling ready to come home to our life in Paris. I actually felt some anxiety creeping in at the end of the holiday...the distance between myself and Paris made me uneasy. It's a feeling I'm not used to but one that I am perfectly happy to embrace.
Leading up to our holiday I was going through such a funk at work, questioning my value within the team and the opportunity to evolve. Some of it was to do with the fact that I needed a complete break to recharge my batteries. The very day that I left on holiday I had a performance review meeting with my boss and it was a positive and enlightening moment. We discussed my progress in the past 6 months, my strengths and my weaknesses and what I can do to improve: but the underlying message was clear. I am doing a good job, I am of value to the team and I am being trusted to take on more responsibility. This clarification allowed me to take a step back and see the bigger picture in regards to my job. After all, isn't it a basic human need to hear, every now and again, that our efforts are seen and appreciated?
This may all sound like pointless waffle to you, dear readers. The truth of the matter is however that I've never thought of myself as particularly ambitious. Up until the age of 18 I believed my future lay in the world of music and performing. Lacking both career and parental guidance, I completely turned away from this world and changed my course by going to university and studying languages. Had I not met JB and moved countries upon graduating, no doubt I would have had a few career options to choose from. Instead I moved to Paris where my degree meant tiddly squat and I had to completely downgrade any career expectations. It's taken me a couple of years to get to where I am today in my career and I see now that was the path I was meant to travel because I learnt so much along the way, as corny as that may sound it is the truth. I'm content to be at a point where I can think of "my career" and feel both excited about and capable of actually having one.
So find your path people. It won't always be plain sailing. I acknowledge that I had good people around me who supported me and reminded me of my worth. Work hard, surround yourself with good colleagues from whom you can learn, remain open to opportunities and always aim to be in a position which allows for future career development. I'm rooting for you.