I'll never forget our first appointment. How lucky I feel to have walked into your office and found a safe haven from all the scary things going on in my life. Fresh out of university in a new country and in a new relationship, I was out of my depth and unable to cope with life. Add to that an absent father (since birth) and an estrangement from my mother...well I really was quite a mess wasn't I? You're too nice to ever say that and I know the kind smile you would give me if I were to voice this to you. I had no real sense of self and I was terrified at how alone I felt in this world. I was also wanting to get back in touch with my mother, but I first needed your help to make sense of my childhood.
It takes an extraordinary amount of guts to bare your soul, even with a trained professional although I have never thought of you in such clinical terms. Our sessions have been a lesson in trust and how to maintain relationships: it isn't lost on either of us that you are a similar age to my mother. At times you have challenged information I have shared with you and I have responded badly, cancelling multiple appointments until I felt ready to come back and continue our work. I have come to see that you are on my side, something that is incredibly important to me having grown up with one parent who was absent from the get go and another who so often threatened to walk away from me and one day finally did.
You've helped me come through the other side of my anger and sadness. I have compassion for my mother. I can stand up for myself in situations when I need to. I'm in a healthy, loving relationship with a man who respects me. I always try to consider a difficult situation from all angles. I know how and when to say "sorry". My personal development leaves me feeling empowered and helps me be as kind as I can in this mad world. I've recently had to accept that I may permanently be estranged from my mother but you've helped me find peace in the fact that I tried my best. I will be OK, I see that now.